sometimes i just feel like breaking down. its just the pressure which is killing me from within. how am i to take it? people around me are getting better and better while i keep falling downwards. sometimes i just don't get it.

'i cant i cant' is appearing in my head now and then. 'i m lost i m lost' is just what my hearts feels every time. i just do not know what to be in the future. the future that holds in me is still locked up in a box. i need to find the key. but no matter how hard i try, no results could be shown. how can i every get the key?

God i hope you can take over. i want you to be my potter, to mould me to become a better person in the future. i know that i was born in this life with a reason. i wan myself to fulfill the will u want me to. God, mould me to become and extraordinary person, as i know without You, my life is empty.

Forgive me God that i am always asking to help me in whatever i do and not thinking about your purpose for me. Please let me to see my future soon as i will work hard together with you hand in hand and walk through this arduous journey.